9:42 p.m. - Apr. 14, 2003
...and if i could show you--you would never leave it...

yeah so i had a lot i wanted to ramble about but really now that i'm writing this it doesn't seem important anymore. i'm bored. i'm waiting. shrug.

i'm getting into a bad cycle so i'm going to try and stop it because well...bad things seem to happen whenever i get into cycles...people stop loving me...i make a fool of myself...cars wreck...stuff like that.

so yeah two or so weeks of sobriety sounds like a good start.

i'm out

before ~ after