12:03 a.m. - Apr. 29, 2004
...the world itself is a bad dream...

sigh.


and so bare is my heart i can't hide
and so where does my heart belong

i found this picture the other day and on the back of it i wrote this lyric and when i read it i almost cried it hurt so much--not hurt...but something like it.....some sort of feeling of loss---some sort of emptiness......i read it and remembered so much at once it felt like a hand crushed my heart just for a second......and i could have died------i could hardly breathe.......and it just seems like i've come so far only to feel the same. so much has changed and everything's the same...and i dont think i'll ever understand........

now that i've found you
and seen behind those eyes
how can i
carry on...

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