2:06 a.m. - Jun. 10, 2003
...yes i've sung a lot of songs...

my birthday was yesterday. thats always an interesting day for me. i try to treat it like any other day but somethings always off. i dont know. out of all the stuff i got the best present wasn't even a present--just a few lines of text...just goes to show it really is the thought that counts. i almost cried. and i guess for once i know why.

my heart hurts and my eyes are tired and i dont know whats going on in my life---but i feel alright...and for once i think i'm looking forward to living my life---even if its still hard....
hope isn't the right word---but its the first one that comes to mind.

can't say that i'm ahead of my time
i feel that my time will never come

before ~ after