6:13 p.m. - Jan. 03, 2003
...the blackness---the darkness---forever...

in coldness every breath is seen
as if the sky lay on the ground
a cloud began--yet faded out
and nothing took its place some how

like ash and dust and everything
each breath of air falls silenty
ending quiet without despair
as emptiness is everywhere

like a cool breeze upon skin---an uneasy calm after a storm---like the temporary emptiness after staring in the sun------it vibrates through the mind and soul and there is comfort for one single moment...an almost happiness---this complacency i wish to hold forever...but never can.

no one will ever understand.

and the sky is blue and righteous in every direction. the sun is total and burning and just right there and today is a beautiful day.

before ~ after